Figuring It Out {TWO}

Graces is now two-months olds and maternity Leave is weird...I definitely don't want to be at work, but this stay at home mom gig (even part time) is hard, but also fun, exhausting, amazing, and challenging. If you know me I am up for a good challenge, but not when it means you have six week old with a respiratory infection. A respiratory invention means potentially no breathing, which means potentially death. Grace got RSV and it was a mental challenge that I was not prepared for (I don't know who is) and although she didn't even come remotely close, the death of a child is the moment when your realize these children are not mine but Gods. See, this virus can kill newborns, and I have only heard scary stories from friend about this it. In fact my friend's daughter's prayer for Grace was, "Please don't let baby Grace die like I almost did?" In the midst of holding Grace for over 50 hours straight, I cried, I smiled at Luella, I pulled it together and tried to relax. Luella was amazing, especially since she is such an emotional creature, with being tough for the "famoly" (Lu's pronunciation). Maybe she realizes only one of us should melt at a time...ha!

(Sad sick baby eyes)

We got through it, Grace is a strong baby. In fact she rocks. I have been hesitant to say anything is fear of jinxing something, which I don't really think is possible, but just is case it is, I withheld. But here goes. She is a dream. She is the most content human being I have ever met. She smiles a lot, loves to sing, absorbs her world, peacefully drifts off into slumber and repeats. 

She makes it super easy to continue to do fun things with Luella. And although, I haven't quite figured out how to cook, clean and shower daily, we did attempt to go to Disneyland, just the three of us. Luella is not much of a ride person, in fact, she asked to go home while we were on Small World. This trip I found out she would rather just people watch. So we decided to do this, while having a unicorn lollipop, and for $1.95 it is the best deal in the park. This is pretty much, my favorite memory of Disneyland...candy!

 (Grace under the blanket, only documentation of her first trip to the big park...Luella's pre-Ride face - already not too sure...we ended the day with tacos)

We go to the park a lot. We can can walk there and are fortunate enough to live across the street form a 1 1/2 mile stretched of "green" with baseball fields, duck ponds and lots and lots of trees.

We have just discovered the joy of the Library...also in the park! Lulu is a proud library card holder.

 (Giving me the "Don't take my picture mom" hand")

Finally, we have been dabbling in the arts too!

(She would rather paint herself, more often then the paper...Look at those feet and hands,just like her Papa's!)

I do love having two girls. I do believe they will be very different creatures. I do believe they will love each other. I do believe they will be determined and passionate. And if not, I do believe I will take on the challenge to show them how. Bring it world, the Volkoff girls have arrived.